Self Reflection Part 5

 Self Reflection Part 5

The tides are turning. It's all moving to a place we could call destiny. It's 2024 right now and in 2021, I was in a call centre speaking about my ambitions and passions openly. This caught the ear of someone who directed me to start off my career in a company that was hiring. Travelling to another town would have been new for me. The goal outlined was for me to go off and do one year's worth of experience and come back. I went over to the new company and immediately found my true calling. I stood out, I was respected and I was growing in the role and as a person. The path was further extended by my skills being acknowledged for me to take on a more senior position. A position where your character matters more, a position where you inspire others, a position where you help others bring out the best of their abilities. I was able to learn everything and give back. I have reached my peak and it was time for a new venture. 

I found a new role in my town. I was brought in with the reputation of being very technical due to my experience. It was a good work experience being at the company. I had a lot of control over the permissions allowing my skillsets to grow. But yet again I hit my head on a ceiling. It was time for something new. Upon browsing a familiar place appeared. It's been three years, and I have the opportunity to go back in a nice IT role. It was all lined up perfectly. I was in the most technical minded space I could be in with strong levels of interpersonal skills. The interview was amazing. The best I've done. I go to the work environment and meet so many familiar faces. 

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The lights were going out. The sounds were becoming silent. Vision and hearing all distorted. I came face to face with my own mortality. Looking down at my hands at my desk, then looking up to see a doctor. A deep conversation where it was like judgement day for me. What was supposed to be the perfect ending to a new beginning crumbled. I lost everything. All the voices questioning what happened. Many brought their own theories and conclusions. A circle where everyone falls off as they believed in you and you failed. 

These entries usually end in a positive way so I'll say this. I had a cleansing of my circle allowing only the true people to remain present. A lot can see this as bad luck. But what I prayed for is greatness. So I will be put through things to achieve it.